"i miss when feeling young meant feeling left behind, not feeling like a failure"

padmaclynne wrote a long entry about things he misses and wants. It just shows how much we both want to move back.

And I think that last line, the line that I used as my subject, is particularly apt (and poetic).

I had this whole long thing written out about life and stuff, but eh, its just the same thing again. I have to maintain that feeling of renewal and get through. Its just another year.

I'm really silly

I have a lot of things I could be doing. I'm in the middle of four books (because I picked up a scifi/fantasy novel that I've read a hundred times today and started reading it again). I have lots of pagany homework I could do (although much of it requires Pat's attention to, and he's at work. I could be studying or reading or even watching a damn movie.

Instead I'm just sitting here, reloading my email and livejournal, hoping for someone to post/email. Silly girl, go do something useful.